Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.
Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry.
My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry.

Feeling isolated today

I tend to do the same thing whenever I feel this way: I shut down and play a game with everyone around me in my mind called “How Long Will It Take For Someone To Talk To Me.” I’ve done it for years, since I was in high school really, and am just now wondering why I do this to myself.

It’s happened with groups of friends, co-workers, classmates and the like. I’m unsure where it started, although I know it started as a desperate ploy to get attention and have people become concerned about me. But that was when I was 14. Why am I that way now? Is it the same reason? Or is it because I genuinely enjoy being in isolation sometimes?

I think the feeling between solitude, which is a good experience, and isolation, which is a forced state of being, is somewhat blurred in my mind sometimes. Lately it’s become more important to me to call myself out of my crap so that I can uncover a deeper understand of who I am and who I want to become.

Some of that is rooted in a prayer that Saint Francis used to pray:

Who are you, Lord my God, and who am I?

It’s a wonderful prayer to pray throughout your day and it’s just beginning to scratch at the surface of the kind of man I am, not the one I convince myself I am.

Just some thoughts.

The life you live every day IS your spiritual life.

How you interact with your co-workers, your conversations between assignments, who you choose to be friends with, your music, your thoughts, your silent judgments all make up the wild adventure that becomes your spiritual life.

God isn’t confined to your prayers and your Bible and your Sunday morning church trips and your small group meetings. God is in every breath, every step, every thought and every decision you choose.

You know those moments you hear about where someone is going through financial struggles and need money, and suddenly out of nowhere God sends it in this unexpected way.

I was blindsided by that last night and it was incredible. Speechless. God is so good.

Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love,
for in you I trust.
Make me know the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul.
My pastor on National Coming Out Day.

My pastor on National Coming Out Day.

Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the wilderness these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. He humbled you…to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord… Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the Lord your God disciplines you.
Let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.

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